people are stupid.

i feel like the biggest backstabbing bitch in the world

i don't know what to do with myself tbh most of the time

and i'm loyal to a fault i think

and i just...

he's so much more important

i don't know

okayokayokayokayokay.

okay.

i need to face facts.

i'm a bit (okay, FINE MORE THAN JUST A BIT) clingy and annoying.

i just... sigh. it sounds so silly, but get this: i got upset by the fact that when vin comes back from melbourne with christian, i might have to wait an extra day to see them due to him being an idiot and forgetting to book tickets earlier so they can only arrive on the day that i was supposed to see them

just.

ARG.

WHY AM I LIKE THIS.

WHY WHY WHY WHY EHY WHYIWHRKJDGHLDGAG WHY.

okay fine i kinda get why: i miss him a lot. like a fuck load. but it's still disconcerting just how upset i got when i heard that news. well, it's not like anyone who reads this (see: ONE PERSON) even really cares about anything i say on this matter, but it's just so... stupid.

so so so so so so stupid.

ARG.

YUP.
WELCOME TO THE LAND OF CRACK.
THIS WILL BE GREAT.

http://archiveofourown.org/works/651294

sometimes it's hard to remember that there are people who care about what happens to me and care about me just in general

there are many things i can think of right now that are going to cause people to go "=S" if they heard about it, so i'm not going to talk about it because i am a massive troll like that DERP.

but no aside from that life has been fairly... interesting recently. interesting, and busy as all heck. tomorrow i'm going on a cruise as a volunteer waitress, since i'll be wasting the time at home anyway. hopefully that will be fun-ish, and rina's gonna be doing the same so yeah.

so past week, went out with friends, partied, stayed over at vin's house again, watched pony, watched the breakfast club again because it's like the best film in the world, and now i have only two weeks left in sydney before i'm jetting off for a week in NEW ZEALAND.

WOOOOOOOOT. pretty excite and yet not excite at the same time, since it'll be with my aunt and uncle and grandma which, no offence, but they don't provide the most scintillating company. sigh. i'll learn to live with it.

on a completely random topic though i am now no longer sexually frustrated. it's pretty great. :)

so wow i realised...
2013.

yep. new year. like wow.

i should think of a new years resolution.

erm.

be... nicer?
get a job job.
drink more water.
eat less crap.

yeah.
that's kinda it LOL.


super short~~~